“狂人日记”,《新青年》第四卷第五号
是的,我虽然自有我的确信,然而说到希望,却是不能抹*的,因为希望是在于将来,决不能以我之必无的证明,来折服了他之所谓可有,于是我终于答应他也做文章了,这便是最初的一篇《狂人日记》。从此以后,便一发而不可收,每写些小说模样的文章,以敷衍朋友们的嘱托,积久就有了十余篇。
True, in spite of my own conviction, I could not blot out hope, for hope lies in the future. I could not use my own evidence to refute his assertion that it might exist. So I agreed to write, and the result was my first story, A Madman's Diary. From that time onwards, I could not stop writing, and would write some sort of short story from time to time at the request of friends, until I had more than a dozen of them.
在我自己,本以为现在是已经并非一个切迫而不能已于言的人了,但或者也还未能忘怀于当日自己的寂寞的悲哀罢,所以有时候仍不免呐喊几声,聊以慰藉那在寂寞里奔驰的猛士,使他不惮于前驱。至于我的喊声是勇猛或是悲哀,是可憎或是可笑,那倒是不暇顾及的;但既然是呐喊,则当然须听将令的了,所以我往往不恤委婉了一点,在《药》的瑜儿的坟上平空添上一个花环,在《明天》里也不叙单四嫂子竟没有做到看见儿子的梦,因为那时的主将是不主张消极的。至于自己,却也并不愿将自以为苦的寂寞,再来传染给也如我那年青时候似的正做着好梦的青年。
As for myself, I no longer feel any great urge to express myself; yet, perhaps because I have not entirely forgotten the grief of my past loneliness. I sometimes call out, to encourage those fighters who are galloping on in loneliness, so that they do not lose heart. Whether my cry is brave or sad, repellent or ridiculous, I do not care. However, since it is a call to arms, I must naturally obey my general's orders. This is why I often resort to innuendoes, as when I made a wreath appear from nowhere at the son's grave in Medicine, while inTomorrowI did not say that Fourth Shan's Wife had no dreams of her little boy. For our chiefs then were against pessimism. And I, for my part, did not want to infect with the loneliness I had found so bitter those young people who were still dreaming pleasant dreams, just as I had done when young.
这样说来,我的小说和艺术的距离之远,也就可想而知了,然而到今日还能蒙着小说的名,甚而至于且有成集的机会,无论如何总不能不说是一件侥幸的事,但侥幸虽使我不安于心,而悬揣人间暂时还有读者,则究竟也仍然是高兴的。
It is clear, then, that my short stories fall far short of being works of art; hence I count myself fortunate that they are still known as stories, and are even being compiled in one book. Although such good fortune makes me uneasy, I am nevertheless pleased to think they have readers in the world of men, for the time being at least.
所以我竟将我的短篇小说结集起来,而且付印了,又因为上面所说的缘由,便称之为《呐喊》。
Since these short stories of mine are being reprinted in one collection, owing to the reasons given above, I have chosen the title Na Han(Call to Arms).
一九二二年十二月三日,鲁迅记于北京。
December 3, 1922, Peking